How to achieve enlightenment or spiritual awakening

How to achieve enlightenment or spiritual awakening: The Spiritual art of breaking bad.

There’s a scene, you know it well, in the original 1999 film The Matrix.  Morpheus offers Neo the choice between two pills- the blue one and the red one:

“You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.”

Taking the red pill of course means accepting reality, no matter how brutal, hard, or difficult that reality may be. Taking the red pill requires a lot of courage. And- taking the red pill is the ultimate example of breaking bad.

Well, guess what? You’re gunna need to break bad in order to wake up. For real yo…

This post doesn’t go into a lot of HOW details but below is a free video course, several E-books, and a lot lot more that will get you well on your way.  Break Bad- Download it now.

Breaking Bad, according to the online urban dictionary means the following:

  1. To go wild, get crazy, let loose, to forget all your cares and just plain not give a sh**, to have a great time, to break out of your mold.
  2. To challenge conventions, to defy authority and to skirt the edges of the law.

But the bad I’m suggesting has nothing to do with the law, or authority, or convention, or social ethics. The bad I’m suggesting is much more rigid and sinister than this. This bad– is buried deep, deep inside of you.  This bad is the mind generated process of the separate ego, which guards itself with the most effective defensive mechanism ever devised: FEAR.

Now, I’m not talking about the type of fear which rears its head in the usual situations such as scary movies, or seeing a shark while swimming in the ocean, or hearing a strange noise in the middle of the night.

No, the FEAR I’m talking about is beyond your comprehension. You won’t understand it any more than Neo did until he took the red pill. This is a FEAR which will cause you to instantly renounce any of your involvement with spirituality or the awakening process. It will instantly melt your resolve and turn you into a cold clammy shivering bundle of nerves. This FEAR is the death of the separate you. This FEAR is the death of the “I”-dentity personality project.  This FEAR is the gateway to a spiritual revolution.

Yep… this is some serious BAD.  It is only upon confronting this fear that you realize that the most important tool you will ever utilize in the awakening process is this: COURAGE.  Bar None.

You are gunna need to BREAK BAD in order to truly confront this fear.

You might want to practice a little.  Don’t know what to do? Please, allow me to lead by example. Here’s a list of some of the ways I broke bad during the years of my spiritual seeking adventure:

  1. I joined several spiritual cults.
  2. I practiced yoga, meditation, and devotion to a guru.
  3. I skydived out of a perfectly good airplane.
  4. I floated in a sensory deprivation tank
  5. I used subliminal hemi-sync tapes to induce out-of-body experiences.
  6. I smoked pot.
  7. I smoked pot at a Gangaji Satsang.
  8. I took Salvia Divinorum (hallucinogen) while with an awakened teacher (he didn’t know) on a guided, silent, ten day, canoeing retreat, on the Green River in the Canyonlands of Utah.
  9. I attended around a dozen sweat lodges.
  10. I’ve been self-employed since I was 24.
  11. I wrote, produced, and performed in a rock opera about a courtroom trial between god and the devil which was performed in Washington D.C. and N.Y.C
  12. I wrote an uninhibited, stream of consciousness, daily personal journal for years.
  13. Over the course of about five years I hosted workshops in my home with three different awakening teachers.

I broke bad. And then…I broke bad, for real. You wanna wake up? You’re gunna need some courage. So, I suggest you get out there and practice; because if you can’t break conventional bad- ain’t no way your gunna break awakening bad.

I’m not suggesting you replicate what I did.  I’m not suggesting you do stupid illegal or dangerous things.  But I am suggesting that you push your boundaries and get out of your comfort zone. If that stagnant five year mark is creeping up on you-  I would consider resetting your spiritual path. (Here’s a blog post with a few reset suggestions)   Some breaking bad suggestions- Sign up for a course (the BCE course is always available).  Go sit with a teacher.  Do a skype session with a teacher. Go skydiving or rock climbing.  Join a local spiritual meetup group and attend. Or yeah-  if  it’s your thing, smoke a little pot and then go meditate at the nearest Buddhist temple.  Break that bad baby.

My point here is to give you a tough love push over the metaphorical cliff.  It’s scary at first, but what you discover as you’re falling is the age old classic insight- there’s nothing to fear but fear itself- and then lo and behold, you’re flying.

Break some bad my friend and you will find the freedom you are longing for. Now that … is some politically incorrect enlightenment advice. Good luck.

Please leave a comment below!  How have you broken bad?  Come on- give us the nitty gritty…

Oh and final suggestion –

Break Bad- Grab the Spiritual Awakening First Aide Kit below.  Best,- J. Stewart

About J. Stewart Dixon 

J. Stewart Dixon is an unorthodox nondual-advaita-zen spiritual awakening teacher and founder of Blue Collar Enlightenment. Born in 1969 J. Stewart began his spiritual search at the age of eighteen, urged on by a general sense of unhappiness, depression and an impulse that something was missing from his life. He passionately and actively continued searching (via numerous paths and dozens of teachers) until the age of forty-one, when while reading a nondual awakening article online, he fell into what is commonly reported as awakening and his search ended. Shortly thereafter he began writing and teaching.


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  1. I took the red pill and never regretted it. Number 12 for me was: burned all my personal journals because I was under the influence of the blue pill when I wrote them. Much love.

    • Burning your journals is an awesome show of breaking bad. That had to have hurt at least a little. I still have all my ramblings. Kudos to you Karen – J

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